There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
So last week was rough, because most of my time these days is devoted to work, only I haven't gotten a thing done. We have this massive new product and a massive, unrealistic deadline, and it is so overwhelming that I have been paralyzed. To really understand how our new product is different from our current product, one would have to really understand the current product, which I kinda don't. So every time I try to start writing about the new product, I am flooded with judgment: "You don't understand this, but you should. Everybody else understands this, why do you even have a job?"
It's been hard to slow down the thoughts of panic and disappointment enough to actually just MOVE ON and try to learn.
Anyway, we had a team meeting yesterday and I found out that most of the India team hasn't even STARTED. And then I attended a small meeting with our CEO and he really put everything in perspective and was super engaging and motivating.
You know, it doesn't matter what you do or what your job is, but if you are proud of it you add something to world. Lakshmi told me when I was in India, "Erin, I am so proud of what I do."
And who doesn't want to be around a person like that?
I am pretty proud of what I do. And even though I'm more ignorant than I want to be about fiber optic transport, I don't know who would be able to write this stuff if I wasn't around. So that's one way to look at it.
Beyond work, I'm just climbing and doing yoga and trying to keep warm. Went to a sports doc about my knee yesterday. He says I have a synovial inflammation, so I'm on ice and advil for a bit and that should take care of it. Permission to run on Sunday, yay.
Also he said my gluten theory doesn't hold because my joint aches that I blame on naan were not accompanied with stomach distress.
Yeah, but still.
So last week was rough, because most of my time these days is devoted to work, only I haven't gotten a thing done. We have this massive new product and a massive, unrealistic deadline, and it is so overwhelming that I have been paralyzed. To really understand how our new product is different from our current product, one would have to really understand the current product, which I kinda don't. So every time I try to start writing about the new product, I am flooded with judgment: "You don't understand this, but you should. Everybody else understands this, why do you even have a job?"
It's been hard to slow down the thoughts of panic and disappointment enough to actually just MOVE ON and try to learn.
Anyway, we had a team meeting yesterday and I found out that most of the India team hasn't even STARTED. And then I attended a small meeting with our CEO and he really put everything in perspective and was super engaging and motivating.
You know, it doesn't matter what you do or what your job is, but if you are proud of it you add something to world. Lakshmi told me when I was in India, "Erin, I am so proud of what I do."
And who doesn't want to be around a person like that?
I am pretty proud of what I do. And even though I'm more ignorant than I want to be about fiber optic transport, I don't know who would be able to write this stuff if I wasn't around. So that's one way to look at it.
Beyond work, I'm just climbing and doing yoga and trying to keep warm. Went to a sports doc about my knee yesterday. He says I have a synovial inflammation, so I'm on ice and advil for a bit and that should take care of it. Permission to run on Sunday, yay.
Also he said my gluten theory doesn't hold because my joint aches that I blame on naan were not accompanied with stomach distress.
Yeah, but still.
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